This is a video that my church used as a testimonial about half a year ago. I stumbled across it tonight and kind of broke down. Aside from the fact that my current stress, worry and sadness could easily be seen on my face, He really spoke to me through this.
I seem to be able to find the Lord the most through simple situations. When its cold and rainy, and a particular kind of glow comes through the windows… when I drive down a road surrounded by mountains and quaint little farmhouses… when my heart beats a little faster than normal because a few kind words were given freely to me. The most common, quiet and average times in life.
I’m thinking back over my relationship with the Lord thus far. I’m tempted to say that He found me when I was struggling, but something can’t be found if it isn’t lost. I had to do the finding. He’s always held me in His perfect hands, and His heart has always broken over my struggles. So, it goes without saying that the beginning of my relationship with Jesus was a sweet one, full of hopeful butterflies and a ton of warm peace. We can all learn from the times in which our stumbling turns into a graceful fall into the Creator’s hands.
Then, of course, I struggled through some massive highs and pitiful lows. I doubted, I ran away… countless times. It’s only been three years since I met Him, and I feel like I’ve already done enough to cause God to grow tired of me. But He doesn’t. He relentlessly chases after me while I run from Him. And on top of that heavy truth, He wants to spend eternity with me?
Our God is truly longsuffering. And I’m just now realizing that I don’t need to wait around for some monumentally huge, “life changing” moment. He meets us in the little middle periods of life in such precious ways. My mind is going crazy with songs to sing to Him, but all I can think to do is be silent in amazement. My prayers and thoughts are with you, friends and family. Our God is jealous for you, and waits for you to meet Him when you feel like He’s not there.